Saturday, February 9, 2008

The Riddle of the Sphinx

The Riddle of the Sphinx: What is the creature that walks on four legs in the morning, two legs at noon and three in the evening?

James 1:5-8 If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.


I once was a child
Crawling on all four;
Fascination running wild,
Wonders to explore.

Constantly, I would ask
Endless how's and why's;
You'd pour out your cask
Of answers, good and wise.

Then, I walked up right
With just two on the ground,
Proud of my reasoning might
And my own vocal sound.

I questioned Your wisdom
And boundaries that You drew
Only to be imprisoned
By my own world view.

Now, I humbly ask,
"What, Where, and How?"
With faith in Your answers
That I had not until now.

Today, I walk on three
With Your staff in my hand,
With my weight on Your wisdom,
Towards the promised land.

Sunday, February 3, 2008

The Struggle to Find Joy in My Trials

James 1:2-4 Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.


I struggle to find
Joy in my trials
For envy remains my master.

Though I pray,
That You'd take it away,
It wouldn't depart any faster.

My faith is an eaglet
Nudged from the nest
Struggling to take flight.

Unable to see
My glorious future
I envy the tethered kite.

Please, set my sight
Towards Your rising sun
On the other side of eternity.

Then, blow Your wind
Beneath my wings,
And let my faith defy gravity.

Sunday, January 27, 2008

I Love the Way Colleen Sees the World

Her words dance
With the joy
Of childhood pleasure.

They hold
Every moment
Like new-found treasure.

For each
Circumstance
They find God's blessing,

Even in times
Of hardship
With trouble pressing.

I wish my words
Could laugh
Like Colleen's writing

And find
The dullest moment
More than exciting.

Friday, January 25, 2008

Evaluting the Past Year on a Cold Winter Night

The winter season returns again,
Hours of solitude to weigh my life.
Its accusing wind cuts straight to the heart
More precisely than a surgeon's knife.

Were my deeds of this year past
Truly selfless and without blame?
Or were they only kindling scraps
To feed the hearth of my ego's flame?

I rummage through the snapshots in my mind
Looking for things of my Lord's desire.
Will I find warmth in His approving smile?
Is there any wood for that fire?

Sunday, December 30, 2007

Following Your Star

I have no gold nor fragrant oil
Sealed in an alabaster jar;
I have never set foot on desert soil,
But, still, I'm following Your star.

My journey does not end at Your manger;
For my journey began at Your Cross.
It's a walk of faith through lands of danger
With parted waters to get across.

Its purpose is not the journey's end;
For You have already taken me that far.
The release of things on which I depend
Is why I'm following Your star.

Rip the earthly crutches from my hands;
Tear, off the walls, every safety bar.
Hasten my journey through these lands
To when I finish following Your star.

Hasten the day when I know completely
What a powerful God You are.
Hasten the day when I know completely
What a loving God You are.

Hasten the day when I know completely
What a trustworthy God You are.
Hasten my journey through these lands
To when I finish following Your star.

Monday, December 17, 2007

Flying With Susan

Nineteen years ago today, Susan's Learjet crashed.

Since our first electrical circuits class together, Susan and I had been lab and project partners throughout our years in engineering school at the University of South Carolina.

I convinced her to take the ROTC flight class with me for our senior elective and Susan fell in love with flying. She went on to get certified to fly multiengine aircrafts and qualified to fly Learjets.

Shortly after she applied to be a NASA astronaut-candidate, her plane went down.

My phone conversation with her mom, after her crash, was the toughest conversation I have ever had in my entire life. I didn't think I had that much tears. Between her mom and me, we could have flooded the entire state of Texas during that call.

But that phone call was nothing compared to evening that I received the package of Susan's things from her mom. That night, it finally sunk in. I would never see Susan again.

For a whole year, I cried every night. Then, my heart went numb and stayed numb for a very long time. Even today, there's a piece of my heart that, I don't think, I will ever get back.

I googled Susan again, today. The story of her crash is still lingering in cyberspace:

The 1988 Mexico Learjet 24 crash A Lear 24B, N234CM, departed Memphis International Airport on December 16, 1988, heading for Addison, Texas with two crew aboard, including NASA astronaut-candidate Susan Reynolds. After it flew past its destination, the aircraft was intercepted by an Air Force T-38 Talon from the 560th Flying Training Squadron at Randolph AFB, but the pilot was unable to contact the crew. He reported that the cockpit windows appeared to have frost on the inside. The Lear entered Mexican airspace. After exhausting its fuel supply, it entered a spin and crashed near Cuatro CiƩnegas in the northern state of Coahuila. The two pilots were killed.

To the news reporters, Susan was a Summa Cum Laude student, an engineer, a pilot, an astronaut candidate. But to me, Susan was the girl that changed my life and taught me to dream BIG. 

Although I had convinced her to take the flight class with me, Susan had been taking me flying long before that.


She flashes you a wicked smile,
Dares you to catch her if you can,
And lets out an infectious laugh
As she spreads out her full wing span.

With a dash and a leap, she soars
Beyond the stratosphere
Next thing you know, she's taking you
To where miracles appear.

Her wings will never be clipped
Her spirit will forever fly.
Whenever you're stuck here on the ground
You'd look for her in the sky.

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Let us speak in present tense.

Let us speak in present tense
And leave behind the past:
No blame and no regret,
No recounting who spoke last.

Let us speak in present tense
For the future can wait:
No promise nor expectation,
No agreement to negotiate.

Let us speak in present tense,
Just about me and you.
Let us use words of encouragement
That is long overdue.

Let us speak in present tense.